Courage under accident

I am ashamed that I tend to worry about me too much. I think it's important to love oneself, but it's also important to work for others. I look up people working for nuclear plant with accident. They are doing what they should do in spite of injuring risk. They are very courageous to keep working for others.

We have a book "Shio kari Toge" in Japanese, in which a man, who is a conductor of train, used his body to stop the train which didn't work the brake at Shio kari Pass. The train stopped and he saved passengers lives in exchange for his life. It was very shock for me. I felt very scared of his action. How can a human be so strong? He just followed his heart? The work makes a human do beyond all imagination. It may be said beautiful, but it's too difficult decision.

I hope we don't have any victim of nuclear accident.

No more war

I read a book written by Michael Moore in Japanese translation version. I don't know the original title. It is about last president election. He is against the war between the U.S and Iraq. He suggests that the U.S should stop the war immediately because Iraq did no wrong to the U.S. If it is true, the U.S should be blamed. He insisted that the Vietnam war was genocide as Vietnam did no wrong to the U.S. From these two wars, I feel the U.S. likes the war. It must be a few politicians. What did they fight for? Are there any reasons for that? He said that it was always people, not the politician or the rich, who became victims in the war. I think he does the right things, expressing his idea to make the U.S comfortable to live for everyone. He has a sense of humour and that makes the book easier to understand.

There is one thing I respect the U.S, it is a movie such as "Platoon." It was a sad movie but I feel the U.S can accept what they have done even it was ashamed. I hope people especially politicians in the U.S would remember and sense the sadness of the war.

Be true and passion

Summer has coming. I am thinking of watermelon. I can have it only in summer, it will be only for 4 weeks, before Bon. Four weeks are enough to enjoy watermelon. I don't have to worry about it.

Every summer, I clean the room. This year, I moved here just a month ago, it seemed to be a few place to clean. For the rest of time, I can read and study, and go somewhere.

I have read a novel written about Hayashi Fumiko, who wrote "Horoki" and her way of living has impressed me. She lived true to herself in writing, daily life, and loving people around her. She hated pretending, even in others behaviour. She only loved what she trusted because she was confident in herself. She trusted what she felt from her heart and wrote only about it. I admire her spirit. What she trusted herself might be a love she had been given her parents or people around her from her childhood. I feel she lived her life being always herself with passion. It is one of the most beautiful way of living.

I just listened to the radio saying same thing:

"Be true to yourself and find something that sustains passion."

What a coincidence!

Suspicion

I am influenced by the book I am reading now. It is about during the war: the World War Ⅱ. There are 2 men who are military policemen. They suspect people whether who are communists or not, and if they found the evidence or just suspected, they take innocent people to a prison and conduct a torture. How violent they are! It could say that it was a war time and they just conducted their job. Yes, we could say so. The war makes people common less and no heart. Anyone could not trust others because they might be a military policeman and observing everything around. In the book, one military policeman looked kind and friendly but he was pretending to make a heroine relax and try to find out the evidence. It must be a horrible society; everyone has to suspect each other to protect oneself. The war makes people suspicious. No one can speak truth of their heart. I appreciate the time I live now: a peace time. Although it seems a peaceful time, there are small violence around us. We have to be careful of any violence, otherwise we miss what we take for granted now: expressing true to oneself.

Write true to one's heart and with passion

I was reading a book from the afternoon to the evening. It is interesting book which is written about a writer Hayashi Fumiko. She worked as a writer during the World War Ⅱ in South East Asia and China. She wrote only what she felt from heart, she was always true to herself when she wrote. It is very important to being honest because the words used in the writing will be true to oneself. It is also important that there is a passion to write when we write. It must be reached to others' heart only there is a strong feeling of writer to communicate to others. She only writes about it.

I have to appreciate the time when we can write freely without any control of others. During the war time, it was not admitted. Those who lived in the war time had to write under the control of military power. The writers always had to be careful of what they write. They must not be able to be themselves, otherwise they would have been put in a prison. I haven't read her famous book: "Horoki" yet though, I want to read it in the future. I am interested in her, she made her house which is ideal to her: very convenient to live and she loved it very much. She made her every day life important to herself. She cooked as much as possible and cared for her son very much. She must be a lovely character.