Balance

"We only live once", which I heard on the radio the other day. I think it means a lot. Since we have feelings, I want to be happy. To become happy myself, I want to make others around me happy. Especially family members. I think we have to live independently as we are individuals. I have to live my own life, not depend on my parents or others. It is a balance what I have to think about it. I don't have to depend on my parents too much, and I also don't have to be careless about my parents. I should keep the best balance between my parents and I because I only live once. I should keep trying my dreams.

Cooler days

The more cooler, the more I can concentrate doing something. During the hot season, I couldn't concentrate studying very much because I sweat a lot and my room was too hot even using a wind fan, it sent warm wind. I feel cold during the night these days. I need thick futon now or I awake several times during the night.

Autumn

The rice fields next to my apartment finished harvesting rice last Saturday. I feel it is very autumn now. As the color of rice fields after harvesting is yellow, yellow looks the color of autumn. I can see color leaves in autumn, too. On the food, we will have sweet potato, chestnut, ginkgo nut, all of them are yellow and I love them.

Follow the truth

I think it is easy to follow what happens in our lives. On the other hand, when I tried to resist it, I should have hard time. I think it is I who have a right to choose which. I have a soul and a heart and I will follow both of them. Once I chose one decision, I will go forward with my soul and heart. It's better to follow the truth of my heart than easier way. I am grateful to be free from anything but my heart. I will live for myself. I hope it makes me strengthen and confidence in myself.

Library

I went to the library to borrow some magazines back number. I wanted to read some articles related to the subject I will translate. It is a science topic. The latest technology about future cure. It is very new to me and I am interested in that topic. I think it is important to research about the topic if it is not familiar to me. As I don't have any knowledge about the topic, I should learn a basic information before starting a translation.

Enjoy foods

It rained in the afternoon and it's getting cooler these days. I felt cold turning on an electric fan in the evening. It surely the autumn has come. I like the autumn fruits very much, such as persimmons, apples, pears, berries, chest nuts, pea nuts, and figs. I also like sweet potatoes, fishes, too. I should have a lot of foods.

When I was in TX., I enjoyed a lot of pies: pecan pie, pumpkin pie, apple pie, and the like on Halloween day. They were very good and sweet and because I was younger, I could have several kinds of pie. Pie is very American food. I think Japanese can't make pies as Americans do. Taste is very different between them. Going to a "House of pie" was very exciting thing for me. I was attracted by an apple pie with ice cream, but I usually had a baked potato. It was also good with some toppings and sour cream. Everywhere around the world there are good foods in each season, I think.

Salmon

A salmon is special to me because it was a title of my first solo dance when I was twenty years old. I was impressed that salmon come back up to the river to spawn roe, and they die after that last work. It is the salmon's lives and it is beautiful that they follow how to live themselves. I wanted to express the vitality of salmon.

My dance was very simple and same to the sound. I thought it was not good. My teacher said that I had to change the speed of movement and sound because both were same tone. It was right. I sometimes think that whether I am living with vitality. If I want to do something, I should follow my true feeling and act. I don't have to be afraid of being failed. If I feel I am failed, I can try again. I don't want to live with something give up and complaining myself. For me, a time for study is very important but I can keep studying even it would be less time. I trust myself and hope I can make a good decision.

Where to study outside?

I think why a library doesn't admit to study there. It says "You are not admit to bring your own study kit and study here" on the paper. It is the place to read books or newspapers around there. I can understand that when people want to read a book there, they need a place to put the book and a chair. I know that. I hope there is a study room at the library. I think the library I went was a small library and they don't have a enough space to make a study room. I know a big library has a large study room and there are always many people there. However, I don't like that place very much.

Should I study at a coffee shop and the like?

Job

I am thinking of a work I would do soon or it would take a long. I have some reasons to work sooner. I should move to close to my parents and I have to rent a room for that reason. I don't know what kind of job I should choose now. I am going to consult an organization because I think they will help me to come to a better decision than I would do myself.

Shiny cafe

I spent almost a day for reading at Starbucks. It was surrounded all windows and I felt rather shiny there. The view from there was very wide and beautiful, I could see a canal, trees, sky and people walking around. I can relax where there is some dark part in a cafe. It was too bright for me. I think it depends on preference of each individual.

Looking for

I was still looking for a place where I would live next. I should move near my parents by December. I should find a job first as it is difficult to pass a review for an apartment. I feel I should wait for a little because I will be busy in September. It looks hard to find a room where I can satisfy since I have many check points. The most important is smoke-free.

Hot season last long

The long hot season makes me tired these days. I can stand hot season rather than cold season, but it's too long. I took nap this afternoon and I felt better. After submitting a trial, I read a book. I think it's better to read where something cooler, such as a cafe or a library. I might be able to concentrate than reading in my room. But I should go out very early hour or I will be tired on the way to cafe because of strong sunshine.