Memento-Mori

I read a book "Memento-Mori", that means "think about the death." It contains pictures of nature, and I think they were taken in India. I felt the death is closer to their lives in India than in advanced countries including Japan. The dead is fired till bone by the sea and the relatives or neighbors watching the all there. I was appalled by the picture because I could see the part of dead such as a leg or a hand. I have never seen the dead firing in front of me. They are hidden in the building here in Japan. I haven't felt the death was something crude or frightend. We are not able to see the fact. The death is not something beautiful. In the book, there are many beautiful sean, such as plants, sky, sea, flowers, green, blue, yellow, red. I think living is happy because there are many beauties in the world. We can make our world beautiful while we live. I want to see the beauty during my life.

facial expression

I heard that human baby tend to see the face rather than objects while chimpangy's baby tends to see objects. The study shows that the human learns from the facial expression connecting with what is happening. I do same thing at the company. I see my coleage's facial expression when I talk about the work. I can understand whether he agrees or disagree with my ideas. It is important to smooth communication with work partners. The facial expression is necessary means for good relationship.

Good bye Whitney

I love "The greatest love of all". She sings about the pride each one has inside. I can remember that each person is important and should be respected each other. Everyone has strength inside to support ourselves. We can tell and show children about it. I think this song is unique in her songs. This song has a great message to us. I miss her powerful and beautiful voice. I feel I am lucky to know the song of her in my life. It tells and support me how I live. Thank you Whitney. I love you as my heart friend.

King's ransom

I can't imagine how large 600,000,000 yen, which was stolen from a company in Japan. Is a person able to use that huge amount of money in their lives? I don't know how they use that money, but it seems to be difficult to use whole of it. If I could get that much money, I would like to use for others. It might be something in welfare, such as for children to be happy. I hope they will return the money by remembering people who is suffering from losing that money.

apartment

It's good to walk to the work place rather than using a crowded tram or bus. It is a stressful thing before the true work. I hope I walk to the work place every morning, so I want to live where I can walk there. I lived an apartment within 5 minutes to walk to a college. It was really convenient because I could spend enough time in the morning in the apartment and never worried about the time of last tram. I will find an apartment close to the work place again.

Practice makes perfect

There is a good proverb, "Practice makes perfect." I think that is true and it is only difficult to keep doing it. I think I tend to go easy way and don't practice hard. I don't see the future risk or dream I want to achieve. It is the practice every day which makes the life happier, closer to what I dreaming of. I should think of time value. The time passes so quick to become old. If I don't notice how precious the time is, I can't achieve anything I want to. I will try to practice every day.

Go for a walk

"When you go for a walk, what do you see?" This is a line of a poem I read before. I see trees, flowers, sky, people, and the like. I often ride a bike, so the speed is rather high than walking. I see what I am interested in. It's similar to the life. I will walk slowly to find out something beautiful and interesting I have never found before.

Cherry blossom

It is the season of cherry blossom here in my hometown. The town is colored by pink. I like this elegant and tender color. The season will be only for a week. I think Kyoto is especially famous for cherry blossom in Japan. Although we have had a disaster and a nuclear plant accident in eastern Japan, we still have many beautiful places all over Japan. I love Japanese landscape. We can still find a lot of happiness in Japan. I also hope many people all over the world like beautiful landscapes in Japan.

confidence

I read that if you want to get a job you really want to do, you should have a confidence and behave so, even if you have never done it before. I think the reason is that if you have a confidence in yourself, you also take responsibility for that. You try to take responsibility because you get money from the job. I will try to show confidence in me at any job interview.

Chicken soup

I know the American likes the chicken soup. I heard that they would have it when they had a cold, stomach ache, and the like. I cooked chicken soup and I think it's very healthy because I can have a lot of vegetables and very simple and good taste. I tend to cook similar dishes like chicken soup. It is easier to cook than fried or baked ones. I can also save my time for cooking because I can have it for some days. I shouldn't let it know that I am a kind lazy.

Anniversary present

I sometimes give my parents a present for their wedding anniversary. Once I gave them an overnight trip because the hotel was famous for unique room and I could afford it since I had a job then. They said they enjoyed it very much. I should arrange it very soon because it will be early in April. I should make a table reservation because I am planning to give them a lunch. It is also a unique restaurant. I feel glad to give my parents something on their happy day.

For our future

It is raining now. Since we had a nuclear plant accident, I am afraid of being wet by rain. Not only people living close to a nuclear plant, but also people far from there, we are all worried about radial affect in Japan.

The fact is the plant had an accident. We believed that the plant would be safe forever. I think we should change our energy source from nuclear to natural energy such as sun light, wind, tide, and the like. We also change our lifestyle from too much depending on electricity. I hope we can live without fear of nuclear and green house gas effect.

We should learn from the disaster and never repeat same mistake. Although we had such a hard experience, we can notice sustainable lifestyle for our future.

Courage under accident

I am ashamed that I tend to worry about me too much. I think it's important to love oneself, but it's also important to work for others. I look up people working for nuclear plant with accident. They are doing what they should do in spite of injuring risk. They are very courageous to keep working for others.

We have a book "Shio kari Toge" in Japanese, in which a man, who is a conductor of train, used his body to stop the train which didn't work the brake at Shio kari Pass. The train stopped and he saved passengers lives in exchange for his life. It was very shock for me. I felt very scared of his action. How can a human be so strong? He just followed his heart? The work makes a human do beyond all imagination. It may be said beautiful, but it's too difficult decision.

I hope we don't have any victim of nuclear accident.

Fragile

Since we have had a disaster, I feel the life is fragile. We can't fight with nature. We have to accept our destiny. I think just living every day is very lucky thing. Thinking of people whom I love makes me relieve. I want to make my life happy for my life. I appreciate the life I received.

Dreaming of Spring

It still snowed. It was storming today. I heard "March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lam." It was lion today. How cold it was. I will try to be positive only inside. I am dreaming of cherry blossoms and I am going to start new thing soon in April.

On my side

"Be yourself" and "Be natural". I think all these things mean "love yourself". I can love how I speak, my voice, my ideas, how I feel, and the like. I think those two words imply "have a confidence in yourself". I don't care others negative words. I will be always on my side.

Passion

I am reading "Pour your heart into it" and I feel I want to drink a coffee. I don't drink it very much though. What makes him move is passion. Can I have such passion to anything? He has just pure passion from his heart. He was impressed by great coffee. What makes someone move is what makes someone impressed. I have been impressed by several teachers since I was a little girl. My passion is still alive and I want to do something I can do to younger people. I can find anyway to pursue it. It's not only through a job. I can do something in my daily life or some volunteer work. So I don't have to give up doing something for younger people. There are many ways I can achieve my desire. Mr. Schultz gave me a power and courage for my dreams. I appreciate it.

Lilies of Field

I saw a movie "Lilies of Field" the other day. It was an old movie and very Christian. I can't believe that there is a man who has such a volunteer spirit. The situation was not normal. The man just got water for his car from sisters. He was on his way to somewhere he had to go. A sister believed that God made him to help them. A person who has a belief makes herself such a strong. The spirit makes oneself go straight to one's goal. This movie tells me that if I have belief in myself, I can achieve my dream. I can feel that I can do anything unless I give up. God helps one with strong will sending someone who helps. I want to be strong by trusting myself. Amen.

visual cues

"Visual cues are key for trust"
I think it means what we see is everything. They may include atmosphere, clothes, facial expression, tone of voice, and the like. Seeing people is the great opportunity to know others. Since I don't work now, I am looking forward to work outside and see others very soon. We can only know ourselves through others reaction. I am happy if I could know myself more than now. I will try to output myself.

Supervisor

I saw my alma mater on the Internet. I wanted to see my supervisor. I sometimes feel I want to see him again. I think he has influenced me a lot and I want to study again someday. The first thing I should do now is to find the work. I want to start working very soon. Maybe I should not choose only what I really want to do. It is difficult to get a job among limited range. I will meet him after I get a job.